August 8, 2018
You had a moment yesterday where you were asking for something vehemently, and at the moment you noticed you did so not only because you wanted what you were seeking, but also because you felt you earned it so, therefore, deserved to receive. Then the awareness came that you had been unwilling to ask. While you thought maybe you were not open to receiving, it would be difficult to receive that for which you have yet to ask.
You do not need to judge yourself for this not being vivid in your awareness, because this is a natural or your personal evolution as it is for all.